My hands stopped shaking
And my smile shone naturally
I wasn't tense as I worked
Or drove
Or spoke
I kept my room clean
And I cooked dinner often
And I found out I liked coleslaw
And salads
And taking walks
I could hold my own in political debates
And my brain didn't reel at the notion
Of filling out checks
Or taxes
Or college work
At long last, I thought
I've finally grown up.
And then I giggled (I giggled?)
During a Disney movie
I dressed up for a nerd convention
And a movie premiere
And a festival
I stayed up until 1am
Reading youth-aimed fiction
Nibbling cookies
Or fudge
Or ice cream
I played action figures with a little boy,
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